Awakened pregnancy & birth Chat (WPCTS)

*A personal/vulnerable share on how symptoms are messengers and our own transformational coaches:* ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ My 2 year old had eczema on her wrists for the past two weeks. It got so bad that it looked like skin burn and was forming a yellow crust (what conventional medicine would call an infection). I knew it was the staph bacteria doing its job, but I was still on alert and worried it may not settle because she kept scratching it and causing bleeding. It looked like it was alternating between conflict phase and healing, definitely with relapses. I started off with the soothing remedies with calendula, tried natural skin barriers as well. The conflict I knew was that of separation, and noting which wrist had it worse i knew it was mommy related (aka me). I had to really put my ego aside, my exhaustion and sleep deprivation to go into what truly was the issue: the issue was my lately very aggressive reactions at night when she wouldn’t settle or sleep even during hours of nursing and walking while nursing. I would ask her not to touch me, i would shove her hands away and feel my skin crawl. In fact, she was “itching” to touch me and to have a loving embrace from me. That is what she needed and couldn’t have. Once I saw the full picture, i prayed i can center myself again, act from a place of love and affection, and not fall into the whole “this exhaustion and lack of sleep will never end”. My heart ached as i put myself in her position, and maybe my younger self at her age, not having my needs met. _Were I to jump from fix to fix and focus on eradication and diagnosis, i would have missed an opportunity to better myself as a mother and woman. To fix instead my relationship with her and how i show up for me and her. As i made these realizations and made sure to casually talk about this to my partner (in front of her), today she is actually almost fully healed and her wrists are getting back to their beautiful tenderness.